work

i had a bad day at work, simply because i don't have all the answers.

i don't know everything, and i expected myself to, sorta.


someone was asking me about indonesia's geography - and indonesia is a place where i lived in when i was a child, i wasn't even born there. i don't know indonesia well, if at all.

i felt like an idiot. but it's alright. reminds me that i don't know everything. so i learn. and tomorrow, i scour the atlas.

when it goes

when it goes, it goes like flypaper stuck onto your hair.

sometimes it takes a few strands of hair with it, sometimes more. and if you're unlucky that flypaper has conveniently stuck on to your cheek and eyebrow and eyelashes. heh

but as flypapers go, it has to be rid of, and then you continue to live your life.


well sometimes you get flypaper. sometimes you get gum. and sometimes, just sometimes, you get a nice bit of candy that you will enjoy and then finish.

so what do you look for?

a kite? a pet bird? a fish in a bowl?


..i know what i got. i had a proud little pigeon. not a hawk, not a sparrow. a pigeon that thought itself a hawk.

suffice to say, i've seen hawks, i've seen sparrows, and by george i've seen pigeons. those are the ones that act like hawks.

and it cut itself loose.. only i still have a feather of this bird.


and it is so.

bravely, briefly

Dear God, today i'd let chris go.

i would do nothing to hold him back from his ambition and happiness and i had attempted to, bravely (however briefly) told him that he should chase his dream and that i completely support his ambition even when i know that will probably take him away from me.

i've been brave these few months, i think this will probably be the part that needs the greatest bit of courage. (please help me here, Lord >_<)

i ask that You, oh Lord, bless him in his endeavors, may his path be smooth because You are there to pave the way, Lord.

in Jesus' Name, i pray. amen.