two days ago

two days ago chris had asked if i'd like to attend his camp's "family day" - when i say "camp" i mean "the army" and when i say "family day" i quote chris: "meant for wives or if they're not married their girlfriends".

why this, now?


what, after all of this he realises that he loves me? nearly a month ago i wrote that i'd let him go, and i did.

as far as i'm concerned, we are no longer together.

i feel for him, yes. i loved him, true.


i think i'd very much rather be single than to have to be on the road of "unscrewing oneself" with him, as a partner. i'll be there as a friend. i just don't think i should be there as a love interest.

because it's too late chris. you didn't know what you had when you had it. that is the price for not recognising what you want when you have it, right there in the palm of your hand.

All About My Dog - Marimo