NOW i have it!

now i have it. my boyfriend's a laissez-faire.

noun [U] (ALSO laisser-faire)
1. unwillingness to get involved in or influence other people's activities: The problems began long before he became headteacher, but they worsened with his laissez-faire approach/attitude.

this kind of attitude, alright, MAKES ME WANT TO TEAR SOMETHING DOWN. people who shouldn't be like that are: teachers/mentors, spouses, significant others, parents. if a teacher doesn't care or doesn't want to influence his students, then who should? yes, there are things like freedom of will, choice, whatnot, but if a teacher/parent does not instill some form of structure, then the kid will grow up an anarchist. you might as well instruct them to place bombs under cars or join the osala's camp!

well, i've had teachers like that and they simply make me think that they didn't care and i don't matter. yes they smile and we talk, but they didn't quite care, like they should, you know what i mean? it might be because they've been at this for a long long time and therefore are somewhat jaded... but then we're talking about people who are taking care of people who will later take care of other people. their growths, i mean.


it especially drives me up the wall when it's something closer to home, like the boyfriend. i mean, don't i matter? if i matter, isn't he going to try to influence me to continue to be with him?

it's like, "i'm leaving!"

"i don't want you to leave but if that's your choice, okay."


WTF?? translation? you don't matter enough for me to want to persuade/influence you to stay. and that's not good. if you don't want it enough, then you won't have it for very long.

being uninvolved... that's one thing a relationship should not be. >_<