Sunday, April 06, 2008

bad news

this is bad.

today, today i really really wanted to kill myself. i thought it was only during the pms that i would feel that bad. that was a few days ago.

i think that i might be spiralling out of control. now i know how britney feels, haha.


friends, please forgive me if i were to call you suddenly. i do not want to be like this, i will do my best to not harass anyone. and junwei, while it is true that it is mainly our currently-dysfunctional relationship that contributed to this - if i really do kill myself, please don't think of it as your fault.

you couldn't have helped me if you tried. i know, and i understand.

know that i've thought and still do think of you as my soulmate, that i love you loads.


meanwhile, this is an obstacle that i must cross. i hope to know myself even better after this.

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