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i don't judge. i only speak of what i feel, how i feel about things.

rather, i'm trying hard not to judge and i think i'm succeeding, that's why i can be "not mad". discernment is different from judgement.. and no, i'm not trying to defend myself.

well, read this however you want to, but i'm tired out. i never knew fatigue can feel like this - so natural, a little healing cause somehow i know healing's on the way. i don't know from whom, or what, but i know i will feel better, have reason to be joyous.

those who read my blog and don't understand and think i'm trying to gain sympathy, please leave. even if you're a friend, a close friend. this is the time when i need your understanding most - if you're not going to encourage me, cheer me on - please leave. if you're going to be brusque or are going to be stony in silence, please leave.

i do not wish to alienate, my purpose is simply to recuperate, as quickly as i can. if you're not going to be of help, or want to be of help, then i suggest you go. cause that's not what friends are for.

being unhelpful and tough love - very different things. i hope you can discern which is which.

i don't like being like this, neither. everybody loves a ray of sunshine, but who catches the rain when it falls?


..thank you jasmine, for being unjudgemental about my weakness. i appreciate that, deeply.