friends, et cetera

sometimes you get to a point wherein you realise that the people you've known for more than a decade are suddenly strangers, that, oh yeah, you had indeed known each other for more than ten years but had been acquaintances for the past seven and you'd grown so apart that unless you start liking yoga and watch teevee you're probably not going to get back to where you were with them.

that is when you understand that well, alright. wow. so that's that, then.


sometimes, you also realise that you never want to be without someone. the very idea of him saying hello the way he used to, the shy way he smiles at you when he sees you suddenly floats right before your eyes as though he were really there and all of a sudden, you lose your appetite, wanting his charming hello to be for you and you only.

then you understand that hey you'd been dating. so who's hurt who, really?


well, i think we both know that this is not our time. there. saying it doesn't make it feel better. but this might: while i felt alive that i was actually meeting someone up, i realise i'll never quite like them the way i like you.

and that's the way it is.