this moment

this moment i realise that i need love.

rather, i realise i need to love. whom is not the issue right now, it just so happens that the last person i loved was him. the earthquakes that used to shake my heart are now knocks on the door. i think i need to decide.

go on and forge forth. i need to love someone. and i will love someone. there is a void in me that i need to fill. smiling as i type this, knowing this is true. i will love, because it is my need. i am glad, now, that i have love. it's flowing, smooth.


at this moment, i'm happy. how cool's that? i'm happy. i'm scared but i'm happy. i'm scared that he won't love me nor return my call nor et cetera et cetera but i'm happy. by and by the fear will fade.

or i can look it in the eye and dig it right out. the important thing now, is that i'm happy. i know it will lead to gladness, joy, security. in actual fact, i have it. it's within me; i'm happy knowing this. i need only myself to be happy, actually.

i choose to be happy. i choose to love. i choose to love, me. : )



open my palms to let go of stones, to reach for the peaches above. and that's the way it should be!