the good stuff only

y'know, i try to only remember the good stuff. i don't want to get angry at you, or at me, or at situations you hadn't learnt to deal with - or situations i hadn't learnt to deal with.

i just want you to be happy, less tired. i also want to feel less wronged.

it's dragged on long enough, causing both of us distress. yet you remain the person i want to marry.


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i want you to be happy... and if being angry at me makes it easier, then go ahead - use my picture as a dartboard. if loving me has been painful, i'm glad i finally found the courage to let you go.

please believe me when i tell you i do this unwillingly. i will remember how your kisses feel, i will remember your smile when you wake and see me in the morning, i will remember your delight when you get your lemonade.. i will remember how you reach out to hold my hand, how i felt when i danced with you.

maybe you're right when you ask how i can ever know how you feel - how do i know the things you do not say nor show?

then again, that's another story. i do not want to pair your name with sadness and unhappiness. you are love, personified. you are my love. my. love. you gave me, discounting the "recent" times, the best relationship i've had so far.


this isn't denial neither. this is my gift to you, so to speak. i honour you with good thoughts only, in thanks of your love.

hey, maybe the only person crying when we see each other next is me. who knows how the other feels, eh?


thank you, for your love.